I think there’s this moment in everyone’s life when they feel exactly like Kevin Spacey in the ending scene of American Beauty. Grateful for ‘every single moment of their stupid little lives’. Maybe some miss the moment and continue to live their lives until the end as if there was more to it. There are so many people out there always waiting for something: Christmas, a new holiday, a birthday, a party, to go somewhere, to do something, and meanwhile saying ‘I just can’t wait to get there!’
Stop waiting. It might be a cliche but life really is what happens while you’re busy making other plans. Unsatisfied with your present? Do something in order to change your future for the best, but don’t wait until you get there to be happy.

I woke up late this morning because it was a Sunday. I texted my best friend to tell him that as I opened my eyes I remembered one of our happiest moments together. And I needed to thank him for that. I jumped out of bed and I started dancing in my room while listening to ‘Viva la Vida’. I spent the rest of the day in, baking muffins with my amazing flat mate whom I’ve been so lucky to be living with for a year. She is one of the most balanced, calm and serene person I’ve ever met in my life. I found he, or she found me on Gumtree because we were both looking for a flatmate. It was dumb luck and for that, I am incredibly grateful.
As we were baking muffins we were laughing, taking pictures and chatting and I felt that there was nowhere else in the world where I would have rather been. Not my favourite bistro in Paris, not on a sunny beach or shopping on 5th Avenue. There was this feeling of closeness to another human being that leaves no room  for other desires or wishes.

We ate muffins, we listened to a wonderful CD (she has amazing taste in music), then I picked a book and sat on our small beautiful reading sofa by the window. And that was life, full of joy, peace of mind and happening right then and there. Some say happiness can be found in the small things. I don’t know if I truly believe in happiness or I prefer the term ‘joy’. Either way, I am sure it has nothing to do with external factors. It doesn’t matter if you’re at a party on a yacht, buying Manolo Blahnick shoes & Chanel dresses, drinking Dom Perignon and being surrounded by fancy people or sharing a bowl of home made soup with a friend and walking by yourself in the park. Makes no difference at all if you can just take a step back and stop trying so hard. Sometimes it’s marvelous to be able to look at your life and get to see the bigger picture. Like you were in a museum and looked at a picture with your eyes partly close in order to see more clearly.

That’s when you realize how small we actually are and that in the end ‘you can’t stay mad because there’s so much beauty in the world.’

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